Wednesday, 25 April 2012

You Fake It

i loved you. loved you with all of my heart.

i let my soul left behind . oh! faraway from my foot steps.
i want you to know that, im still here. still here. still keepin faith on you. believing you and loving you.
oh yes! you left me behind. you blinded me from the inner part of this hole. you made me feel all types of feelings, and it wasnt expected...that you were the only one who can make a change on my ways.

you made me fly passing through the skies that was like " A Dream Came True " in a princess fairy land. you made me smile like a fool girl that was loving someone that leaves herself falling apart without any signs of ignorance.
yeah ! you made that all surrounding my days. 
" how could you let him leaves me like this? is it only because love cant be forced to him? i never wanted to force my feelings for him. i just let my feelings show up by its own way. yeah! with all my honesty... that i was expecting him to be the one who'll and can replace my heart for the rest of life. i know that we;re young. but its not bad to think in this way. i just dont get it... why you people judge me? and you!!! you!! you're telling me to move on. but..... at last you made me fall apart. by my own."

and thats the silence of her teared heart.

may be...
someday you'll realize that i was true in love with a guy like your type but the may be someday im gone to somewhere thats so faraway from your foot steps sounds... 

Saturday, 14 April 2012

A Rare Silence

When you have a bleeding fearless that no one can see, when you let yourself hidden from them all, when you’re left behind in the darkness of your soul, when you know that no one can feel the feelings that is building the demon’s bridge, when you let yourself drowning the deepest ocean by your own, when no one can believe even a word from you.

Remembering every moment that was full of survives. Remembering the moments full of laughs, smiles, and even tears of happiness was just a past.
God...if I was wrong in my way to get closer to you, sooner or later I’ll have to find the right once. God…is it destiny of the last breathe of this living life?I came out, and said that it wasn’t my fault. But then she was blinded by the materials of the world and yelled at my face with her rounded eyes. It was scaring me. Fearing my spirit to defend myself. She made the fact left as a fake in his eyes. let him awake and see the rare fight between us. she was blinded by the emotions and all what she wanted to have it for her. she shouted, yelled, screamed at my face and pulled back the short hair by her hands. she pulled, pushed, let the girl that was me in the world sitting falls apart. made the beats of my heart faster than usual. after a while, I thought that he could see the reality that she wasn’t good to treat an eighteenth girl in that rude way. but then…at last… I have to accept another yelling from the other one. now, I realized that no one can ever see and feel what I had been facing this all for too long. I’ll never can win the won of this life game. its just not mine. may be it wasn’t right for me to explain him in the night before the day started us all. this is another repeats from the darkest deepest fearless of the past. dark clouds, cold blooded, bleeding eyes, tears of hearts, fearing lips to tell the truth. truth that will tear every heart apart. you will feel it, if you saw it all…I’m sure that you gonna end up with an opened eyes, before you can blink for twice.”
-this is a small part of the story that I knew-